When I was 13 years I started having chronic pain in my back and when the doctors saw I had Scheuermann in my spine, they recommended me to find a sport I liked. I started rowing kayaking, and quickly started training several times a day on and I loved it. It became an elite sport for me and my lifestyle. I still had pain, but much less than before. It suited me perfectly to use my body and go after my goals. I learned a lot about training, determination, and self-discipline by practicing elite sports. That determination. Later in life, I needed this to survive my journey through a life with chronic pain. Today I can look back on a long journey, from a life of elite sports to life on the couch. And till now to have a whole new body without pain. In many ways, I feel like I experienced in an early age how it is to be limited in everyday life so that I now can help others.
The twenees were the worst
The start of my twenties were the most painful years of my life. The twenties are usually the years when you get to develop your self, go out and have fun, maybe travel and you have the energy to live your dreams. But for me, that was not the case at all. I had chronic pain in several places of my body that disabled me in my everyday life. I had to plan everything from shopping, washing clothes, cleaning out and being social. Therefore my goals and dreams became intellectuals. I studied to become an Occupational Therapist and in that study, I was determined to find answers about pain and eventually be able to help myself and others with my knowledge. Throughout my education, I was constantly seeking answers to my own pain, and this is where I began to practice yoga and meditation. I started reading about everything I could find about pain and the body. Today I see that it goes without saying, that hope was the only thing that kept me going. All doctors I saw told me I needed to learn to live with my pain. So it gave me hope every time I could read about someone who had gotten better. Which is why I find it important to share my story today.
After I became an occupational therapist I found great value in researching and therefore chose to read a Candidate in Social Work at Aalborg University. Education lifted my academic abilities and to that extent my reflective ability. I continued to research pain. At the same time, I went through all the treatments I could get at: Chiropractor, massage, rheumatologist, medical treatment and physiotherapy. But all these treatments did not bring hope. On the contrary, they told me that I should learn to live with pain. Fortunately, I had found the yoga and there I felt time and time again that I could do better. So there was always a part of me that believed it could get better. But it wasn’t until I got a degree in pain science and went through a pain rehabilitation course that the pain went away.
Suffering from chronic pain gave me insight about the body, movemnt, thoughts, emotions and enviorment and empathy for others who have pain. In manny ways I feel like I became old while I was young, by which I mean that I was stiff in the body, tired and have a markedly impaired ability to function. That experience makes me an insightful and empathetic therapist, healer and yoga teacher. No matter what problem my students and clients have, I now know from ny own experience what i is like to not be able to live the life we want. Because I have been there myself I never judge or neclect but on he other hand I feel what they feel and I understand their situation. Because of that I found meaning in my own experience and I use it evertime I teach.
When I teach yoga there is always room for everyone, because I know what it is like not being able to hurt, to feel stiff, limited and tired. I have been through the whole journey myself, and I understand the adjustments and thinking that is needed for the body and mind to let go, give way and allow healing. I also know that sometimes we have to feel the pain, allow them to just be and dare to go into them, to review them and come out stronger and more flexible on the other side.